a sense of enormous well-being

[devi]

I've just lost three more hours of tuition - one of my sociology students went to the Bahamas and has apparently decided not to come home. (I can see her point.) And my month-off-the-booze lasted all of three days, from Sunday until Wednesday when there was a chair-flinging brawl in the Chinese restaurant we were in, and I simply had to go and have a nice cold pint of cider to settle my nerves. (Purely medicinal, of course.)

I should probably be angsting wildly about my fast-disappearing job, the nastiness of London, being poor, having no willpower, not owning a sofa, etc etc. But instead I've been in a ridiculously good mood for days now. I'm thinking that really my life is great - filled with buzz and busyness and fascinating people and a constant power-hose flow of entertainment and information for me to lap up with all my senses. I may not be able to take the pace for ever, but right now it seems to me that one day in my house in the country as I sit with book in hand and cat on lap, listening to the birds singing, I'll be looking back on the London years with affection, not with a shudder.

I don't know why I feel this happy. There's no rational reason. It's all purely subjective, so I might as well just surf along on it while it lasts.

Comments

[lostcarpark.livejournal.com]

Hey, you're on the verge of becomming an up-and-coming, ground-breaking science fiction writer. What's there to worry about?

[sparktastic.livejournal.com]

I was inordinately happy yesterday, for no reason at all.

Today I'm feeling a bit gray, but I'll enjoy your cheer all the same.

We should meet up again sometime, coffee, tea, wine or beer?

[mzdt.livejournal.com]

come on, this isn't what they invented livejournal for - there must be some teen angst in there somewhere... ;-)

we should all spend the evening in a pub again. Soon.

[miss-newham.livejournal.com]

It's because you're the coolest woman in London and therefore have much to celebrate. (Though not one of the best two librarians.)

[miss-newham.livejournal.com]

By the way, I'm still planning to put myself up for adoption by you and verlaine. If you can look after a rat...

[nisaba.livejournal.com]

Argh, I have your subject line circling my head in a deep voice, and it's driving me mad trying to remember where it's come from...

[bluedevi.livejournal.com]

I feed the pigeons, I sometimes feed the sparrows too. It gives me a sense of enormous well-being. And then I'm happy for the rest of the day...

Get it yet? ;)

[nisaba.livejournal.com]

...safe in the knowledge there will always be a bit of my heart devoted to it.

Thank you! I'll be able to sleep tonight now :)

[the-elyan.livejournal.com]

To (mis)quote the play we saw the last time I saw you:

"So ... I have no flat, no man, no job, and no prospects. Even my cat has left me. I keep expecting misery, but all I'm getting is exhilaration - basking in the cold, clear air of absolute irresponsibility, knowing there is nothing else they can do to me.

If it weren't so utterly out of keeping with everything I've been taught, I'd have to conclude that this was happiness"

[Eva Johanson, as reported by Jeffrey Bernard]

Know the feeling well...

[norantiskitchen.livejournal.com]

I'm so pleased I'm not the only one. Every time I tell people how happy I am they try to poke me with sticks and evil phrases like 'pension plan'. They are just jealous of our ability to live in the present and not crave the materialistic trappings of life that come with a sensible job - you know, things like electronic gadgets, food and new shoes.

I do have a sofa, though, so I must be extra happy. You can come use it anytime you're in the Clapham area bluedevi :]

Yayyy!

[a-llusive.livejournal.com]

Go you,
I'm managing to drift in that zone occasionally atm - hope it lasts with you.